Would this illustrate that fear levels in a person could be directly related to that persons ability to trust? In my opinion, people who have had their trust damaged in any way, seem to fear more because they trust less. These people are more likely to doubt or question themselves or the situation they are in, and it is these doubts that seem to lead to fear.
Speaking to My husband about working on the new World Trade Centre, I know that I would be too scared to work that high up, but my husband is confident that it is perfectly safe because of the safety ropes. I would be so scared of the ropes breaking or failing in some way which shows that I have no trust in the ropes or the situation, despite having no reason what so ever not to trust them or to feel the way I do.
I know that I do not trust easily, it does not come natural to me because I've been hurt too many times. I've trusted people only to have that trust destroyed in the blink of an eye. As a result I find that I tend to doubt and question everything. If someone pays me a compliment I will be wondering why they said that, what did they really mean, were they being nice or was it a way to make a sky dig at me. I read things into it that aren't actually there and I cannot simply trust the fact that a person might have just been being genuinely nice. I don't even trust myself to make the right judgements or decisions, I co stanly question if I am doing the right thing and will always seek a second opinion to hopefully back up my decision for me.
Comparing my complete lack of trust or ability to trust, with the levels of fear I experience is what leads me to believe there is some direct relationship between the two. I am the person who simply cannot watch a horror film or hear a ghost story because it will play on my mind for months and even years afterwards. It will give me nightmares and strike fear through me even years later. I'm the girl that won't walk into a room if the light is off and the one who is too scared to turn the lights off as I leave a room. I'm the girl who is too scared to go out alone after dark, who is terrified of what others think of her. My fear and anxiety levels are sky high on a permanent basis, could that be related to the fact that I struggle so hard to trust?
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