For some reason, recently, I've been completely consumed by this awful blackness, this horrid mood, this constant urge to just cry all the time. I feel like I just can't be bothered doing anything, I don't see the point of getting up in the morning, I don't want to go out, I don't want to be around people asking constant questions. I just don't have the energy to face the world and smile at the moment. I know people just want to to tell me to simply snap out of it, man up, get over it, whatever.
I wish it were simply that easy, don't people think if it were I would have done that already? Half of the problem is that I don't even know why I feel so low right now. There's rock bottom, there's 100ft of crap under rock bottom and then there's me, under that 100ft of crap :(
I need to find a way out, motivation, positive thinking, something, anything, right now I'm desperately clutching at straws and its killing me slowly...
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